My Spiritual Journey

Explanation of Poem: This is a poem that I wrote a few moths ago when I was sick with a very painful illness that made it very hard for me to sleep at night. I wrote this while lying in my bed in the middle of the night because I couldn't take this incredible pain anymore; I felt like God had forgotten me. The night I wrote this I felt more alone then I have ever felt before. I was pleading to God to heal me, and that particular night, it felt like he never would.

I have come to the conclusion

That my pain goes away

When my consciousness goes into the abyss

And my impatient mind floats astray.

But in my unconscious state

The pain is not yet gone,

Monsters become real

And not one heavenly figure had shone.

I started to wonder,

When will that day come

When I am in the better place

And my body is a new one.

I prayed every damn day,

It felt like no prays we received.

I was destroyed and demolished

So I started to plead.

Teardrops poured from my feverish eyes,

Who was once the man I trusted

I now despised.

I thought that he forgot me,

I felt so alone.

But then I remembered that this is a test

And the outcome was left unknown.

I started to trust him and all that he's given.

He's seeing how strong I am

And if I fit in.

I can conclude my friends

That I am not too weak,

My body will fight this monster

That's been killing for four weeks.